Time Moves On And So Must I

I need a place I can be honest and I can be "me". I think I am just starting to discover who that is and yet still don't seem to know. The things I do know I am begin to validate and be okay with.
I guess spring is a good time to renew. To make the changes you want for yourself, not the ones people tell you you should make. So I'm going to. Where it leads me is where I am supposed to be. I am done believing that things are random. I am in control with the help of God. Mundane is a miracle. I am a miracle. You are a miracle.
If life sucks, I'm going to say it sucks. I'm not going to sugar coat anything. There is nothing wrong with telling the truth. There never will be. It will set you free. I know my truth may be darker then yours, but it's mine. There are some things I can't help or change so I'm just letting them go.
I chose to remember warm nights filled with breezes. music, and magical feelings. I choose to remember tears. I choose to take it all with me.
I can't censor myself anymore. If it means I loose your friendship I am so sorry and I will cry long and hard, but I can't live like this anymore. I am just me. I love so deeply and I don't know how else to. Despite being mistaken for an extrovert, I'm not. I just have a genuine interest and love in most everyone I meet.
many people don't "get me", and that's okay because I am a rare bird. It's no one's fault and it's okay. Finding others like me is hard, and I have to know that those times and connections will be few and far between (years and years), but I know you are out there my kindred. I'm waiting for you to enter the stage of life.
I long for starry warm nights in the mountains where I can see God's creations and the stars bright and blazing, undimmed by man made lights. I long for minimal things. I hate money with all my heart. I know it's necessary, but everyday of my life will be a step closer to a life free of money and a time of self reliance. From now on I will be Machiavellian in deed when it comes to money. A means to an end.
Could you imagine if I drank what I might be typing on here??? LOL! I'm going to try my best to be accepting of whatever I feel. Set myself free from judging others and allowing others to judge me. Not sure what else I will put on here (the blog), but it will be honest and it will be ME.

Yours, K