No Blog

Dear Blog readers there will be no blogs for a bit, I just recieved news of a dear friend loosing a baby and obviously don't feel up to it and hope to be helping my friend deal with this loss in whatever why I can instead of writing this blog. Despite sad news for me I wish all of you a wonderful weekend and a reminder to hold those you love just a bit longer . . .

Yours, K.

Song

Barcelona
Where the winds all blew
The churches don't have windows
But the graveyards do
Me and my shadow
Are wrestling again
Look out stranger
There's a dark cloud moving in

But if you could hear
The voice in my heart
It would tell you
I'm afraid I am alone

Wont somebody please
Hold me, release me
Show me the meaning of mercy
Let me loose
Fly, let me fly
Let me fly

Super paranoid
I'm blending, I'm blurring
I'm bleeding
Into the scenery
Loving someone else
Is so much easier
But I hold myself hostage
In the mirror

But if you could hear
The voice in my heart
It would tell you
I'm tired of feeling this way

God, wont you please
Hold me, release me
Show me the meaning of mercy
Let me loose
Let me fly
Let me fly
Let me fly

I wont be held down
I wont be held back
I will lead with my faith

The red light
Has been following me
But don't worry mother
Its no longer my gravity

Hold me, release me
Show me the meaning of mercy
Let me fly
Let me fly
Let me fly

Not Very Bloggy Today

Hola all. I am not feeling much like blogging today. Feel lonely and sad so I will spare you from having to read it. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. Ty for reading and I love you all so much. TY for all of you out there that are so kind and take such good care of Korban and I when we have needed a helping hand. I wish everyone a beautiful day! If I am not feeling the best, the next best thing is knowing those you love are happy :) XOXOXOXOXOXOXOOOXOXOXO

Yours, K.

Horton Hears A Who

As I'm sure everyone in modern society knows Dr. Seuss' Horton Hears A Who is now a CGI movie. Needless to say having read it MANY times Korban and I went and saw it the day it came out (my sweetheart's b-day March 14th) and we read it again tonight and it got me to thinking about what the meaning behind the story could be. Dr.Seuss' stories, like Mother Goose tales, are political commentary or life lessons masked in the genre of a child's story, also notable is The Wizard of Oz.
Of course Ted (yeah we're that close!) is no longer alive so I can't very well write or email him about what he was trying to say through Horton and the Whos, but something Korban asked me made me start to think and I may have a close idea of what he was trying to tell us.
Near the end of the story, the inhabitants of Noo are all chasing after Horton and Korban asks me, "Mom, why are they all chasing Horton?" And I told him it was something called "mob mentality" and I explained to him that is when a group of people, who would otherwise wouldn't on their own, join together to persecute a person or certain group of people because of what they may believe or look like. He asked me why people would do that and I reminded him of the Holocaust (which we have talked about before) and how one person like Hitler can convince others something is true when it's not.
From this exchange it makes me think that Horton Hears A Who could very well be Ted's take on WWII and what Hitler did. Originally published in 1954, the timing would be correct. A less then a decade after the "end" of the war.
To me it seems that the kangaroo is Hitler. The Who's are the Jewish community. One of the major players is a black eagle named Vlad (the bird of the Nazi's being an eagle and we knew by then about Stalin).
I think Ted is trying to say that one person can turn a peaceful society (The Jungle of Noo) into wild animals (Nazi Regine) when they are told that something innate (The Jewish community) is a threat to their way of life. So it is better to destroy the threat that cannot be seen, heard, or felt, then let even the idea of it exists.
I can't figure out who Horton might be. I would say America because we ultimately "ended" the war, but we were more apart of the jungle. Not chasing after Horton, but looking past it for a long time. Not until Pearl Harbor did we come to help the "Jews/Whos". Maybe Horton is the alliance at any given time. A large force trying to stop the "kangaroo/Hitler" AND save the "Jews/Whos". Or the ultimate force for good, God.
I think the fact that the Jungle of Noo refused to believe that this group of people were being destroyed is a commentary also on the fact that many German's at the time and some to this day (I shouldn't say just German's because it is more then them) believe that the Holocaust never happened! That it was made up! Despite there being proof!
In the story the Whos have to endure many hardships. They suffer a lot of destruction. Yet they band together, looking to a voice in the sky to save them. A force bigger then they are. "We are here! We are here! We are here!"
You also get the message that "A person's a person, no matter how small." I believe Ted is saying as the bible does, that no voice is without out merit. The rain was made to fall on the bond, the free, the just, and the unjust, all are equal in the eyes of God. I have no idea what, if any, faith Ted followed, but I am certain he had some kind of faith in God.
And lastly I like how he ends the tale of Horton hears a Who in that the very SMALLEST voice in Who-ville makes all the difference. That one small Who, Jo-Jo, and his "YOPP" are the salvation of Who-ville and all the Who's!
There are so many examples of just one person making major changes in the world. Gandhi, Martin Luther King Jr., Rosa Parks, Mother Theresa, Desmond Tutu, and many more.
In summation I would say that the moral of the story is, letting someone else think for you is dangerous, just because you can't see, hear, or feel it doesn't mean something isn't there, that no group of people (society) is without it's place in our world, and that every person's voice is meant to be heard and is very powerful!
Theodore Geisel was a very wise man. Horton Hears A Who, is only one of MANY powerful stories that he wrote, I think wisely knowing that children are more prone to bending with the change in the wind than to snap and break like adults, so we should tell them these great pearls of wisdom while they are young and through whimsical rhyme, they learn to be good people . . . wow! I guess another name to add to the list of a single person who has changed the world is Dr.Seuss.

Yours, K.

Mystery Sister

Okay, so Korban has a VERY active imagination (where does he get that from?) and he will tell me little stories all the time about different things. Some I can see where they come from, this one I have NO IDEA and it is freaky!
Like any typical kid, Korban will sometimes fight bedtime. 89% of the time he goes to bed and BAM he is out, I have him trained pretty well in at least one aspect of life! Sometimes, however, he doesn't want too. He also suddenly developed a fear of the dark when he was about fourish. I am trying to get him away from it. One, I hate the lights on when trying to sleep, two, paying for the electricity, and C, I don't know but it has to stop!
So I have been trying to wean him off the light being on at bedtime. First step light on in room. Second step light on in hall, third step "night light" of some sort. Step four lights out! Right now we are between step 3 & 4, so there are times Korban is in the dark and sometimes in the light.
Korban has lately been talking of a "Mystery Sister". AT first I thought it was him trying to make himself a "sister" because he is missing you know who's daughters (he hasn't asked about them in quite a while, which makes me happy since it broke his heart to lose them and a "dad"), but then he told me he is afraid of the Mystery Sister.
I asked him how he could be afraid of a sister? He told me he is afraid of her and she comes at night. I asked him what she looked like and he told me, "nothing." How can a thing look like nothing??? Then a few days ago he gets up one morning ( a night light night) and tells me the "Mystery Sister" hates light and stayed away. Okay . . .
So, I am not sure what the heck to think. I have talked to David about this and told him I thought at first he might be thinking of a "ghost" and saying "mystery", but he knows what the world's definition of a ghost is and he has assured me she is not a ghost. And it's not like I even believe in ghosts let alone talk about it a lot, believe it or not he has learned that kind of stuff on pre-school shows like The Back Yardagins!!! With his limited vocabulary and cognitive ability to express what he is talking about, it somehow converts to "mystery Sister". I will keep trying to figure out what he is trying to express by this term, but whatever it is, it terrifies him. He has never expressed "sister" as a negative thing. So I am confused and freaked at the same time! LOL! I will keep you updated on the "Mystery Sister" sightings and if I ever get Korban to express what "she" is!

Yours, K.

Boring Blog

Today was a VERY boring day. We did next to nothing. This is why some times I feel like I am not a good blogger, not much substance. BORING! Also why I am a crappy journal keeper too! Um . . .okay I guess this is all there is for today. Sorry we are so boring, but these days are my very favorite.

Yours, K.

A Miracle!!!!

It is a historic day in my life! Korban WANTED to get his hair cut! Can you believe it??? I made him wait 2 days after he asked to make sure he meant it since last time he got his hair cut with our Aunt Janet and Uncle Don he wanted to know when I was going to put his hair back on! I let him know it didn't work that way and he suggested staples , glue, or tape to reattach it! I also told him none of those things were an option and he cried! He was much dismayed to learn it would have to GROW back not be reattached!



So , as I said, today after a long talk about how hair stays off once removed we went and got his hair cut. The young woman who did it was preg and cranky but we got it done and got the heck out! Despite the hormonal scare, Korban's hair turned out cute I think!



It was funny because on our way to get Korban's hair cut who should we run into but Uncle Don and Aunt Janet!!! LOL! I guess they are hair cut fairies and where ever they go hair cuts follow! It was nice to see them! They had just finished with Meeting and were getting a bite to eat with a group of church members. After Korban got his hair cut he wanted to go back and show them and fortunately they were still there! So they got to see the before and after! And uncle Don (the big softy!) got Korban a cute little plastic bank with candy in it and a bubble blowing whistle ( as seen in the pictures)! Korban loved both and so did the neighbors! LOL! So a big "thank you" to Uncle Don from the folks at Pepper Ridge Apts!!!
So that was our day! Korban got a hair cut, an unexpected family reunion, and violating noise ordinances!!!!!! Go Sunday!!!
Also a parting note! My pookie finally took my advice and started his OWN blog, let's see how often he writes in it! But anyway, the link is on here if anyone wants to check it out! Love you all!!! XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX

Yours, K

Corbin's (Korban's) Grill

Today Korban and I went to a new resturant that is in Layton close to the mall called Corbin's Grill. We had seen it listed in the phone book about six months ago, but never really looked for it and one day we were heading home and saw it! Korban was so excited to go to "his" resturant! So finally today we made it over there.
It is a very NICE place! It has a wall water fall in the middle and very earthy decore! The booths are somewhat tight, but they mostly have tables and chairs. they grill everything using wood as the heat source over an open grill. It is basically a very mod steak house with the prices to proove it.
I feel for the food quality it is VERY overpriced, however the abiance is like nothing else here in Utah and for a once in a great while dining exp it is worth it. The kids meal is a very good deal as in most rest. I know from my days at the OG that 99% of rest provide kids meals at cost to lure in families because if they marked up the kids meals as much as they do the adult entrees none of us would go out to eat at any sit down rest except for a "date night"!
Korban informed me upon our arrival that he build "his" rest during the nights while I slept. He would turn into an adult, come work on the rest., and then come home and turn back into a big boy before I would wake up. LOL! I told him he did a very nice job!
So if you have a special occasion and would like to try something new with decent food and an amazing atmosphere I suggest Corbin's Grill! Korban gives "his" rest two thumbs up!
Hope everyone enjoys Confrence this weekend and has a nice break with their families at home. :)


Yours, K.

Sorry

Okay I got a very "upset" email from my dad's wife today saying my April Fools joke was thoughtless and I literally all most gave him a heart attack. Didn't realize the though of me having another child was something to dread on his part or I never would have included him in on the joke. So if I offended anyone else with the thought that I might reproduce I apologize and meant no distress, only an April Fools joke, which I thought would be rather funny since anyone who knows me well enough would know that unless my name is suddenly "Mary" and an angel has appeared to me there is NO way I could be having another baby! I haven't gotten any other April Fools Day hate mail, but wanted to say something before you sent it. SORRY!!!!! If I ever am preggo again I will not announce it, if you see me and I have another kid with me who looks like me you can assume I did and we'll leave it at that!

yours, K.

Picture Says It All!!!!!!

Needless to say it is a very "happy surprise"!!!!

Yours, K.