Nothing New

So while I am in queue to play WoW, I thought I would update my blog. As the title indicates, nothing new has happened. Still waiting. Still walking everywhere. Still winter. Still feeling useless.
Not sure why but the holidays really sucked this year! I should have been happy, filled with the holiday spirit. My life was touched with kindness and good deeds. Of course Korban and I talked of the reason we have Christmas. Anything to do with the Savior is usually enough to make me happy, but not this year.
I feel like in my life Satan truly won this year. I feel sad and lonely. unable to see past my petty problems to all the good that is around. All I did Christmas day was cry and force myself to eat nothing but applesauce (made Mac n Cheese for Korban). I wish I wasn't this way. I wish I could be like I used too. I'm still trying to figure out what went wrong in my life to make me so weak. I don't know. Sometimes I think it may be that even the strongest bridge can break if constant weight with no break is put upon it. That's how I feel. Put upon.
Yes I know there are those who suffer more. Those who are not ungrateful like me. Those who are the example of Christ-like faith and love. I am blessed to know many of them.
The only good thing I can say about this year is that it's nearly over! Thank goodness! This year can only be rivaled by 2001 when Katie lost her baby, the Twin towers fell, my husband left me, and I found myself homeless. I remember being sad then, but like I could keep moving on. Now I feel like a cess pool.
Wow, maybe I shouldn't have updated. This is mega depressing!!!! Sorry all!
Despite my uncalled for feelings, I hope all of you, my loved ones, are happy and warm. That you are enjoying a break from work to be with your spouses, children, and extended family. Please know that the only thing that still grows in my life is my love for all of you. Just want all of you to be happy and blessed.

Yours, K.

Warning! Contains "Women's Issues" Read At Your Own Risk!

Okay, so most of you know I am kind of a conservative "hippie". I love keeping things as "natural" as possible. Well in my effort to keep it "natural" for the past year (apx.) I have used a product called Lunapads. They are reusable pads.
Can I just say I LOVE THEM!!!! Now that I am a real girl and have real periods I can safely say they rock. I bought a mega pack that included a bunch of sizes and lengths for different flows etc. They are made out of very soft flannel and after use you soak them in cold water until you are ready to wash them (they also come with a mesh washing bag so they all stay together) and you wash them and you can dry them but I choose to let them air dry in an attempt to make them last longer. With careful use and washing they can be used for ten years!
You can choose whatever fabric you like (mine have a black background with flowers. I know, I know, but I am girly okay!) They have a snap to stay firmly onto your panties and fabric across the front and bottom so you can use extra removable pads if needed. I don't have to buy pads anymore, if I have a unexpected visit from aunt flo I'm always ready! And the best part (for me) is knowing I'm not filling some land fill with a bunch of unnecessary trash!
I know this choice isn't for everyone, but I'm very happy about it. I feel more in control of my body as a woman in making this choice not being pushed into buying commercial products that are inferior, more exp., and pollute the planet.
I just feel like in biblical times they used similar methods. They didn't pump their animals full of hormones and grind up old livestock to feed to the "in use" animals and then send it off for people to consume. They didn't have pesticides to cover the food they grew. They did none of this yet they lived hundreds of years! I think that says something.
If I am blessed one day to have more children I would really like to do it as natural as possible. If I can, and it is a safe choice, I hope to give birth at home in the care of a mid-wife. I would breast feed of course, as I did Korban, and I plan on using cloth diapers.
I know that God did make this earth for us to enjoy. I know it is fine to consume the plant and animal life and that they were made for this purpose, but I also feel that as a wonderful gift we should also take care of it the best we can.
Don't worry I'm not about to go Amish or anything! I love in door pluming! I love washers and dryers! I love heat! I love not having to slaughter my own food! I am all for tech, but I am also for making a bit more effort to make sure this wonderful gift of life and the planet last as long as possible!
I doubt I will have any takers but if anyone out there is interested in learning more about reusable sanitation products email me and I will hook you up. No I don't get ant kick back from this other then knowing I'm helping women I love and the planet. Also this is not some Mary Kay type thing where I want you to be my minion and sell Lunapads for me, I have just loved using them and didn't know they existed until I was doing research online about the symptoms of PMS (since I had never had it til then!) and saw an article on reusable pads and then (with the google masters help) found best valued fit of reusable pads for me. Anyway, I love them and wanted to take time to write about it on my blog maybe three people read! Now less since this is a "woman's issue" post! LOL!

Yours, K.

PS - I also use a reusable herbal heat pad from Lunapads. Heaven!