Nothing New

So while I am in queue to play WoW, I thought I would update my blog. As the title indicates, nothing new has happened. Still waiting. Still walking everywhere. Still winter. Still feeling useless.
Not sure why but the holidays really sucked this year! I should have been happy, filled with the holiday spirit. My life was touched with kindness and good deeds. Of course Korban and I talked of the reason we have Christmas. Anything to do with the Savior is usually enough to make me happy, but not this year.
I feel like in my life Satan truly won this year. I feel sad and lonely. unable to see past my petty problems to all the good that is around. All I did Christmas day was cry and force myself to eat nothing but applesauce (made Mac n Cheese for Korban). I wish I wasn't this way. I wish I could be like I used too. I'm still trying to figure out what went wrong in my life to make me so weak. I don't know. Sometimes I think it may be that even the strongest bridge can break if constant weight with no break is put upon it. That's how I feel. Put upon.
Yes I know there are those who suffer more. Those who are not ungrateful like me. Those who are the example of Christ-like faith and love. I am blessed to know many of them.
The only good thing I can say about this year is that it's nearly over! Thank goodness! This year can only be rivaled by 2001 when Katie lost her baby, the Twin towers fell, my husband left me, and I found myself homeless. I remember being sad then, but like I could keep moving on. Now I feel like a cess pool.
Wow, maybe I shouldn't have updated. This is mega depressing!!!! Sorry all!
Despite my uncalled for feelings, I hope all of you, my loved ones, are happy and warm. That you are enjoying a break from work to be with your spouses, children, and extended family. Please know that the only thing that still grows in my life is my love for all of you. Just want all of you to be happy and blessed.

Yours, K.