Wish

I wish that I wasn't suck a mess up. No matter what I do it's not right. I try to do something good and all it gets me is trouble. I cry a lot. I feel bad for feeling bad. I try and I try and I am just worse off.
I am pretty much just tired of trying any more. There doesn't seem to be any point. I am misunderstood in all ways. I used to think one day I would be happy. I used to think if I kept getting up one day I would get a break from being knocked down. I don't know what went so wrong with me. I wish i could fix it. I wish I could be happy like everyone else. I wish my love were seen as a gift and not a burden. I mostly wish I could be normal.
Wish I could be a person like everyone else then I could know how to communicate and help people. I don't know what i was made from, but I am getting worse. Anything good in me has gone bad and now I am all black inside. nothing. nothing.